Today. The Day.

+ Woke up, talked to my parents. Had their last wisdom nuggets for me :) Love them. haha <3 Learned a lot in one hour.

+ Last MInute additionals to luggage.

+ Went to JAcks Ridge with my sister, nephew, and lil sis. HAd fun. ATE AGAIN hahaha. but then I had a great talk with my sister.. She told me how God turned around her life, how HE blessed her. and it all began when she obeyed my parent's wisdom. So i want to do the same. I will obey. My parents wants me to let go of my friends first... So I will obey even if its tough. Friends and Dreams. it can't be together with me. I will keep the friends that I know who are true and that's it. :) Dreams aren't easy to reach it needs several things to give up. ANd for me, it's friends. <3 This is the time that I choose my friends. :)

+ Went to OMF with my family. I wanted a book so badly "Bloom". My parents didnt buy it for me for it was expensive. But then I will pray for it. Indeed, it's God to whom I should ask for :) Felt that The enemy was attacking me from here. I prayed and all was well. :) my emotions subsided.

+ Had a last dinner with my parents in my favorite resto, Andessa. We had so much fun. :) I will miss them for sure. :)

+ I asked God why I did this blog for... and i didn't realize that as I write everyday, it made me let go of KOna slowly. :) God showed how much He blessed me and How He sticked with me. :) Today as I went to manila, I had no regrets, only faith and joy and a bit of fear but dependence on God. :) He indeed is amazing... He helped me let go and see the blessing beyond the chaos in my life. :) He was preparing me.

+ I am in manila now... A new Journey Begins for me :)

Day 35

+ Had a breakfast with my very very close friend from addu in Mcdo. Had so much fun having breakfast with her :) It's like our last bonding till I come back to davao. She was so sweet. :)

+ THEN! had Lunch with the same "Ahiya" from the anime group in i think.. roadhouse. It was a steak house! the food was SOOO good! and they treated me! We where 4. 2 kuyas and 1 ate. :) They were so much fun to be with. They're the ones who really took care of me whenever I would hang out with the anime group :) I would surely miss them. <3 It's their last treat out for me until i get back again. :) SUch great friends ^^

+ Finished my luggage FINALLY!

+ Then went in a Bible study. Ate again. Loved the food. They had baby crabs hehe. Then my dad preached. I like the topic. was about being not perfect. :)

+ THEN! had a date with my dad in a coffee shop. Ate sausage and then drank coffee! HAd so much fun with my dad. We talked about the female and male roles in Creation :) Love talking to him with coffee <3

+Practically I was pigging out the whole day. Haven't felt so full for a long time..O_O

+ I'm just thankful to God... for giving me such wonderful people in my life..:)

Day 34

+ Went to my favorite coffee shop here with my "ahiya" from an anime group. I love talking to him. :D He treated me coffee and nachos! Ugh... I will really miss this place :,( We talked a lot about my heart towards someone, and talked about parents. It was a great talk and he bought me a book! "For women only" He's one of mi best ahiyas! :D

+ Then talked to my dad. Poured out my feelings about how I feel at home. I tried to understand him and my mom's tiredness. Thank God, He helped me. :) Then. I found out a way to cure this brain meddling thoughts. that is to sing for God :)

+ This is one of the best days ever! I got to talk to a VERY good friend whom I've been wanting to talk to. We had a casual talk and that cheered me up a lot :D gave me courage. :) A very great friend indeed. I just love talking to that person. Made me laugh, smile, and encouraged me. Can't wait for that person to go back here so we could talk a lot again ^_^ This person is someone whom cheers me up just because that person is being himself. :)

Day 33

+ Bought a gift for my "little brother" one of the most important people in mah life :) Bought him The Shack. Hope the Holy Spirit will talk to him through that.

+ Then had lunch with my "little brother" went well. I will miss that dude. We were laughing and reminiscing. <3

+ My little shobe from an anime group gave me a puzzle ring! it was soo nice :) I Loved it! Indeed there is something with women and jewelries :)

+ Finally got to reconcile with my best friend before in Davao. :) Was super glad. God indeed moved ^_^

Day 32

+ I have an impression that God wants me to stay in the Philippines this year. Yet it is subject to change depending on my spiritual growth :) I think God is changing the pace of my life. He wants me to be deeply inlove with Him at this time. :) He actually made me write what He wanted to tell me. Here it is: ( I've cut a lot of parts because it's long. Some are just plain private so I didn't type them here. )

I've given you the Gift of Christmas Shi. Do not take this gift for granted. I've given this to you that you may show the world the beauty of Me. The beauty that would bring rest and peace in the hearts of coarse men and cold hearts. Shiriel I have a big calling for you... But I cannot use you until the Word, My Word is engraved in your heart. You are in a battlefield my child. I won't send you out there unless you're fully armored.

Please stop worrying, stop thinking that you're alone, for you are not. ... I have given you a gift that you are yet to discover. Have patience my child. Your thoughts are mine. You are mine. Bring my colors to the world...

...Do not forget that I am your First Love. Write letters to me, draw arts for me, write books for me...

Do not give up. Be still. Sing for me. Never forget to pray and talk to me. My books for you are Psalms, Proverbs, Song of Solomon, Ecclesiastes, and Job. :) I love you my child. Be still and know that I am God...

I created you that way... See the details of life, see the sparkles of gemstones, the beauty of dresses. You are a woman, you are my masterpiece. Not let anyone look down on you for you are precious in my eyes... From trash to complete elegance. You're my little artist and I want you to create, create, and create. You're not perfect and I am patient...

I want to hear you voice every morning. Your voice is sweeter than the sweet singing of the birds that you hear. I know your thoughts... I wouldn't just give you to any man, but I will hand you over... without you trying so hard. He will love me before you.

I hear your silent prayers, your longings... You weren't called to pray alone Shi. Find a prayer partner. Do not be afraid. Let people know you, let them see me in you. Reveal me through your arts... I love you and I will use your hands. Your hands are my gift to you. Don't ever forget that...

I will use you mightily this year. Hold unto that promise. Listen for my voice is small, but it won't be long that it would be loud. Love me Shii. I will use you. Prepare your heart, mind and soul. Pray. Meditate. Appreciate. :) My little Artist :)

...Take my hand, have faith. Never let go for I will never let go. Keep on writing, keep on singing, keep in drawing. You are my little artist from before, now and forever...

+ I've got to stand up! WAHOO! 3 more days. :)

Day 31

+ I can't believe it. My mom is the greatest mom in this world. She has a huge heart. It's hard to explain here but she just has this heart that is so full of love and sacrifice... I am learning a lot from my mom... She doesn't know it but I observe her, I observe what she does for me and boy am I amazed. She's like God in disguise. Oh my. My parents are like God in disguise! they're perfect for me.

+ I want to earn next year! I want to give back what they've given me, no more than what they've given me! and then pay it forward! I want to show the world how amazing my parents are. I want to tell the world how they raised me up. :)

+ New year indeed. New surprises. New learnings :)

+ My father prayed for me today and my thoughts were cleared. I need to read the Bible more that I may fight every condemning thought from the enemy. Everyday I will recite Psalm 139, a loud.

+ I want to make LOTS of arts! wahoo!

+ PS. Packing ain't easy. xD

Day 30

+ 7 more days. It's a new adventure for me :)

+ Indeed it is new year. I can feel it in the air :) I don't know how God did it, but I just feel it. It's everywhere. From the clouds, to the sky, to the wind, to the sun, to the smell of the air... Everything seems so refreshing. It's not raining its not to hot. It's perfect. :) Such a memorable day for me :)

+ Slowly my heart is coming to huge realizations. I am a princess of God worth fighting for, there's so much in that phrase :)

+ I need friends. Real girl friends or a group. I need to regain my social life. :)