Day 29

+ Okay so I still used the computer. Haha I just had to!!!! New year here I come! :D I used my glasses and i didn't have a headache.

+ The reason why I have endless headaches and tummy aches is... I'm stressed!!!! I am a week away from leaving for manila and I have to clean and pack up so many things! 3/4 of my luggage is my mac and crafts! 1/4 are my clothes!!!! Aahhhhh! Artist thing i guess haha.

+ Fixed my bag full of clothes :) My next bag. Craft bag. BIG and HEavy. Ayyiii.

+ Needs new revelations. :)

+ Decided to grow up indeed... realized that there's a kid inside every person's heart that could never be forgotten or left behind :)

Day 28

+ Had so much fun today! :D Went to a very close friend's house and boy did i enjoy the snacks, dinner, and tekken! whoot! I love playstation!!! ahhh... Haven't played it for years now. :) It's good to be a kid for a night again :) Even if my wrist hurst SO BAD now. Atleast my kiddish spirit has been revived :)

+ I thank God for a wonderful evening. Wouldn't trade it for anything.

+ I'm starting to make good habits today! weee! :D

+ Just a few more days before the 7th and I am having weird tummy thingies achies. I think I'm stressed. xD

+ Oh yeah no computer for the whole day tomorrow! it's new years and I have an awful headache and our suspicion is, "too much computer" haha. so no computer for a day :)

Day 27

+ I will have my macbook pro on January eleven hopefully. :) God indeed kept his promise that When he closes a door, he opens a gate :)

+ I have realized a lot of things. SO many things that I actually enjoy facing today. :) Grow up grow up. It's hard but indeed it is exciting as well :) I feel like a different person everyday.

+ I have learned to let go of my emotions, I have learned that indeed love is a choice not a feeling. But emotions are darn hard to control!

+ I might write a book soon.. :) I have many ideas, for ladies, for men, for fathers, for teens. haha anyways. Loving my life. :) God is turning my tears into gemstones. Gemstones are wisdom applied :)

Day 26

+ First Monday that I really really love. :) I felt energized, I felt different.

+ We went out as a family with a friend too. We went to the park and registered so i could vote! Woooah. I have no idea how to vote.

+ Made final arrangements for my macbook pro :)

+ My lil sis and nephew biked for an hour, while we, the adults, sat on the benches and waited for them. Felt so happy being there. I like seeing kids on bikes.. :) and sitting on park benches. <3

+ Thought a lot. My dad kept asking why I was so quiet lately. Now i know... It's my season of thinking, my season of growing up slowly from the inside.

+ We then had coffee in Kangaroo. They have the best nachos!!! I love my mom for treating me one. :D and my friends for treating me coffee with pink sprinklers! Yum Yum! I actually have a photo. hahah.

Tadah! See mah Nachos at thee back?! YUMM!

Pink sprinklers! Aahhhhh... soo cute :D I love this drink <3

Day 25

+ Had a good time in church :) Felt God's presence during worship. He was either on my right side or His hands were curled on my shoulders. :) SO many things I want to ask and tell him. So many learnings passing through my head. Wisdom. So much wisdom.

+ Got to hang out with my anime friends. Realized that I indeed am changing. Several people said that I look more mature now, I look like a lady, not a girl no more.

+ But one person did say I look OLD. Now that was disturbing.

Day 24

+ Got the biggest gift from God. Wisdom and Understanding.

+ Not everything is based on feelings or emotions. It is also based on choice and declaration and faith. I choose to have a happy Christmas. I choose to receive the gift God has given me even if I cannot feel it.

+ I am pretty, I am different, I am Shiriel :)

+ I choose to grow up. It's time to be a woman. It's time to take care of others. :)

Day 23

+ It's Christmas. :) an hour past midnight to be exact. I just received my Gift from God... I received wisdom and understanding. :)

+ Sharing so much of what is going on with myself actually shuts off my listening ear. I should really balance it. It's time to bottle up my emotions and release them in arts, and time to turn on my listening ear again once more. :)

+ He made me realize that someday someone would understand me. I just have to wait and first focus on Him.

+ It's time to get back on track. depression, perfectionism or whatever. I got to stand up once more. Life isn't about me. Life is about God and others. :) Life must go on. I fall down today, today I should stand up too. :)

+ There's just magic in Christmas that I couldn't explain. Little miracles then releases the heart and gives a new hope. Next year, my Christmas would be extra ordinary. I am sure of it. :) I've decided to save up ^^.